Friday, 17 February 2012

Choices + Consequences

My ears are ringing from my son screaming at me.
Enforcing choices and consequences never goes down well.
Especially during the 'consequences' phase....

I have been trying to do some more packing today. This proves difficult when there are 3 young boys running and crawling around, climbing in the boxes, running with the scissors, hearing "BENI'S GOING TO CUT HIS FINGERS OFF!". That sort of thing.

I'm beginning to feel like this task is going to be too big for me.

The moving to Italy thing.
The packing-the-house thing.
The "parenting successfully" thing in the midst of packing-the-house and moving to Italy.

Luca's pile of books he wants to take to Italy. Ready to go.

I'm feeling rather overwhelmed with the uncertainty of what lies ahead.
Realising the consequences of our choices.
How Austin will probably miss out on Max learning to walk during the initial 3 month period because he will be living in London while we are in Italy and only coming 'home' to Italy every other weekend, if that.
How the boys will seem bigger each time he sees them again after being away.
Hopefully I won't look bigger each time he sees me again after being away.....HA! That would suck...
We will certainly be missing him during the day-to-day things.
It's his absences over those three months which I know is going to be the hardest thing about our move.
The hardest consequence to endure because of this choice we have made.

On the flip side I know there are so so many positives to this choice.
An exciting new experience for us as a family; the opportunity to immerse ourselves in a new culture and language (ok this is still freaking me out...); living in our house in Italy = CRAZY! I was starting to think that day may never come; living in a house with more than enough space for us; living our dream = (once again) CRAZY! It's blowing my mind.
And don't even get me started on the fresh produce, food, wine, coffee, gelato, beaches etc. I'm sure you don't want to hear it.

So as you can see there's a whole mixture of emotions and feelings happening here, the most resounding of which is PEACE. We have peace about the decision we've made.
We are in agreement with our choice, we are aware of the consequences, both good and bad, and we are happy, pleased and excited with our decision.

I know there's a lot that still needs to happen between now and March 28th, and moving house is not an easy task, but I'm determined to make it happen.
Determined to live this dream.



  1. ... this makes me even more determined to be there for as long as I can xxx

    1. P.S. LOVE Lucsi's carefully stacked pile of books on Macca Pacca.

  2. You can do it!
    You are a wonder-woman! Love the dream becoming reality, take each day as it is, be gentle on yourself and expectations.
    So excited for you, it's going to be wonderful (despite the feelings of craziness!! Love to you, xx

  3. So wish I could stay longer


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